I had my 4 week follow up this morning with the fabulous, Kristin! I am now at a loss of a total of 9lbs. I am very thankful for this weight loss. Like I said in one of the earlier intro blogs I know that there won’t be an overnight massive drop in weight because gaining weight didn’t happen over night. It was a process of gaining just like losing it is a process. I have started going to the VitalSigns gym! I’ve been twice now (Saturday & Monday) and the walls did not cave in when I walked through the doors. 🙂 To start out I’ve just been walking on the treadmill. I’m ready to get to work on my upper body but will wait until Terri, our wellness nurse, and I can work out a plan. My arthritis and fibromyalgia primarily resides in my neck and shoulders so I don’t want to risk injury by venturing out on my own.
Kristin and I discussed the possibility of future plateaus and my goals. Many have asked me what’s the point? How much weight do I hope to lose during these 90 days and to be honest I don’t know what would be a realistic idea. If I could lose anywhere from 20-40 lbs I’d probably cry tears of joy but I’m not going to focus on a number. In the past, whenever I focused on a number then once I reached that point I sort of gave up after that and ended up right back where I started. Instead, I’m looking to make a change in my lifestyle in order to maintain this for the rest of my life. So I am willing to put in the time, the sweat and yes, even, the tears to learn how I got to this point and what I can do to prevent this from happening again.
Exactly 2 months from today I will be 30 years old! This 90 day challenge is a gift to myself. I shared with Kristin that I want this to be a catalyst to focusing on the rest of my 30th year on truly getting healthy and losing weight. I have so many things in my life that I need to work on and the weight is just the start of it.
Spiritually – the Lord has shown me how I have used food to find comfort vs. seeking Him.
Emotionally – I have allowed food to fill a void vs. allowing myself to feel those feelings and allow the Lord to work through emotions.
Financially – I have been a poor steward of my finances by spending friviously on eating out. Now, I know we all have to eat but I allowed convenience to dictate how I eat and have spent money when I had things at home to eat.
Physically – I have been disrespectful of the body the Lord has given me. I’ve put things in my body that have prevented it from working the way He created it to work. I have criticized and belittled His work like it’s His fault that I am in this situation. He’s been waiting for me to clean His house up and, friend, it’s going to happen!
Mentally – I have listened to the lies that Satan has whispered to me for years vs. seeking the Lord’s view of me. Satan even had me believing that the Lord just might agree with him. He’s such a punk becaue his lies had me thinking … Maybe I am hopeless. Maybe I have let myself go to far and I will never reach my goal. What if I lose all this weight and discover that I’m still not an attractive person? Or what if I lose all this weight and then someone I already know falls in love with me … do they really love me because they didn’t when I was overweight? What if the weight comes back? Will I still be lovable? Is this issue something I am going to pass on to any future children or to my nieces and nephews? Can I really get the victory over this?
That junk has been the soundtrack of my life for several years … on constant replay for far too long. However, today I can say that the Lord is calling me to replace this vile vitriol with His orchestration for my life. My new soundtrack will include things like this …
“Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing.” John 15:5 (I can’t do any of this on my own, so why do I keep trying? He’s ready and far more capable to help me.)
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11 (Satan may have my past memorized but God Almighty has my future in His hands! Does that sound hopeless to you?)
“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them.” Romans 8:28 (The Lord can use anything in my life for His good which is ultimately for my good!)
“Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.” Jeremiah 33:3 (The Lord invites me … invites us all … to call on Him and He will answer. This was my verse for 2013 and the Lord is still proving faithful to His Word.)
Friends, I hope this encourages you no matter where you are in your journey of life. What lies has Satan been telling you that you are allowing to hold you back? Release them. Turn them over to our Heavenly Father and allow Him to work in you and through you. Allow Him to sift through the dust and debris you’ve hidden in the corners of your soul in order to usher in His blessings and love for you. You are redeemable. If I can do this then hear me when I say that you can do this too! Please know that if I can pray for you or help you in any way that I would be honored to do so. We are working on getting an email address set up so you can get in touch with me one on one if you would like. I’ll update the blog as soon as we have that set up. You’ve been so faithful to encourage me that I would love to return the blessing.
As always, thank you for taking this journey with me I am so blessed to have you all walk with me.
Until the next time …