Well Friends … this 9th week proved to be a busy and most difficult one for me. My weight fluctuated quite a bit after maintaining last week. At the beginning of the week I did see some weight gain but considering that 14 hours of my weekend were spent in the car driving I’m not surprised. After work on Friday I drove down to Mississippi to spend the weekend with my parrents and to celebrate a most precious little boy’s 3rd birthday!
I’ll admit traveling and eating in the car is difficult. It’s so much easier to grab something “carb-y” than it is to slice a bun-less hamburger while driving down I-40. 🙂 So I gave in and picked up Taco Bell. I haven’t had that in 8 weeks. It used to be my go to comfort food. It wasn’t nearly as satisfying as I remembered and thankfully, I can say that I don’t feel like I have missed out by not having it. I drank a lot of coffee and Diet Dr. Pepper to keep me going till I pulled into my parents’ at 12:30am CST/1:30am EST. I felt like I was swimming by that point!
My nephew had his birthday at CiCi’s Pizza Buffett on Saturday. I had a small salad and 4 pieces of pizza. I only ate the toppings and may be 1/2 of the crust on one slice. Now I had to be a good DeeDee and have a slice of the birthday cake. My sister-in-law was kind and gave me 1/2 of a piece. It was good but it wasn’t nearly as sweet as watching my precious nephew’s face light up when he saw me at his party. On Sunday we got into a shouting match to see who could yell “I love you” to the other the loudest!! That right there was the worth the 14 hours in the car, the lack of sleep and the little bit of weight gain. With that said, I did manage to lose another .8 this week bringing me to a total of 17.8lbs in 10 weeks.
Weight loss is weight loss and I am VERY thankful for that. I know what I need to do to get back on task and to finish out these last 3 weeks strong. I am going to go back to writing down my meals in my food journal and being consistent to exercise at least 3 times next week. I’m staring 30 in the face. One more week to go and it will be here. No escaping it. Not that I want to but I want to go in with both guns blazing!
Healthwise this week I am still dealing with migraine/headache. I am on day 10. I still believe it to be a combination of stress, hormones and weather but y’all I am wiped out. The quick trip to Memphis/Missississippi wore me out. I guess I’m getting old. 🙁 Ha! It’s discouraged me though to feel like this after so many weeks of energy. I feel like I am losing steam. I even asked the Lord, ” why?” yesterday morning. Immediately the story of Elijah came to mind when he fled from Jezebel in 1 Kings 19. He placed himself under a broom tree and asked the Lord to take his life. Elijah was tired. He was burnt out, the people of Israel had turned their back on the Lord and his life was threatened because he was the only one still serving the Lord. He was probably even thinking, “What’s the point?” While sitting under that tree, having his personal pity party, he fell asleep. He was awoken twice in the midst of this by an Angel of the Lord to eat and then he fell back asleep. He was told the second time that he needed strength for the journey ahead.
After Elijah’s strength and energy were restored he traveled 40 days and night. Where did his journey lead him? It lead him to a meeting with the Lord. Elijah bemoaned the fact that he was the only one left still serving God but the Lord gave him a mission and sent him on his way. The mission he was given brought him to Elisha. The Lord heard his cries over being alone in serving the Lord and gave him an assistant, a partner in ministry and friend to bear the burdens with him. He was no longer alone in his calling.
Maybe you feel alone in whatever journey you are on. Maybe you are the only believer in your family or your workplace. Maybe you are the only one who still stands on your convictions or is willing to fight for those who cannot fight for themselves. Maybe you see those around you who are hurting and you feel called to help but you feel so inadequate. Or you may very well be in a circumstance that you don’t see a way out of and are striving to make ends meet on your own. Well maybe it’s time to rest. Maybe like Elijah you need to plant yourself somewhere, cry out to the Lord, tell Him your need and that you are not strong enough to do this on your own because, Friend, you aren’t strong enough. The Lord could be waiting for you to surrender your “right”, your need or your want to be in control so He can work. I believe if we do this then we too will meet with the Lord. We will be strengthened and sustained for the calling He has placed on our lives whether that’s in ministry or the marketplace. He may even send along other believers to help shoulder the burden or He may send you to be someone else’s burden-bearer. Or it could be that this is a task that requires only you and the Lord but either way He will be there.
“And behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice.” 1 Kings 19 11-12
Take the time to rest. It may be that He is talking about you are too distracted by the circumstances around you to hear His voice.
I hope you have a rest filled weekend! I love you all for walking with me on this jouney!
***UPDATE*** So my migraine last week had me completely thrown … I was actually in my 10th week!! 2 more to go. 🙂